When I was in secondary school I was a skinny kid. You might think that the problem was that I was skinny. But no that was not the problem, the problem was that I had a big waist. Like imagine a skinny indian version of Kim Kardashian , that's how I looked.
I wasn't the one who noticed this "disproportionate waist size" it was my family members , my uncles and aunts. From them my cousin's who are 15+ years older than me "realised" the same thing. They also found out that my hips swing from side , like a lot. So my had ingredients for body shaming and I realised that my family members (not my mom and dad) used to stare at me with sympathetic eyes.
On top of all this I fell sick when I was in higher secondary and lost 15+kgs. Keep in mind that I was still a skinny kid. It was like as if the universe wanted my life to be miserable. After almost 6 months of hospital I was weighing around 20kgs. I couldn't understand a word they taught in school so I kinda failed that year.
The next year when we were having summer vacation I joined the Gym. Like almost all guys who joins gym for the first time I was also joining because of the wrong reasons , body shaming. It was not easy at the first time I was exhausted when i finish my workout everyday, legs didn't obey me ,they started to shiver . My cousins were saying "gyn is not for skinny people like you", "you'll break a bone or two if you continue going to gym" . But when you are in a gym you get inspired to sculpture your body ,it's hard to get caught in negative comments. So I said to myself "fuck you assholes" and moved on. In gym you meet people who look like they can beat up a freaking Kaiju but won't even hurt a mosquito on real life.
After 2 months I started getting results , I saw myself in the mirror and didn't want to leave. I was proud of myself for pushing through. I gained 20kgs in a year and a half. I enjoyed the pain the next day I get when I wake up ,I loved the soreness . It made me feel like I'm getting stronger, like I can take on on a Kaiju by myself. My shoulders got broader and my waist wasn't disproportionate anymore. I became confident , I became strong. And I'm still getting stronger every day!
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