The Sun Doesn’t shine on everyone

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I know…. It has been a couple of days since ive wrote something to you. That’s because I was lazy 😉. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still lazy as a sloth with green algae growing on its ass.  In 2019 we went on a trip to Hyderabad. We were a large herd of omnivorous humans, there were almost 10 families including my own. They were my dad’s friends and their families. We went there by train, got ourselves an old bus whose seats were covered a layer of fine dust particles for sightseeing. I like to think that the bus gave me a bad cold that time and not the ice cream I ate. Anywho we saw a lot of places, shopped a lot, ate a lot, and slept a little. Seeing new places is more fun with friends and this trip was filled with a lot of them. Teasing each other, pulling pranks on each other and jump scaring many made the trip more memorable.    Then one fine night went for a “light show” or more like do-anything-with-lights show. the other guys in the group went for shopping and didn’t c
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Brink of madness

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It took me a couple days to type this cause everytime I start typing I think about this really low time in my life, it's hard.


Hey you! Over two years people have talked about nothing else than Covid-19. We have lost a significant amount of our life to this pandemic. Like everyone else I also want this to end and be free of these shackles. I want to go out without wearing a mask , I want to hug and get hugged by the people I love. But it looks like that's not going to happen anytime soon. *Sad.

Let me take you to the starting of this awfull thing called "lockdown", March 2020. I was in my college and there were news about a couple of people getting covid 19, I'm talking about 10-15 or so. As usual my State went to full on panic mode and announced holiday to educational institutions for 10 days, they thought they could get the situation under control in that time but boy they were wrong! 


I came back to my house to celebrate these holidays caused by a microorganism. For the first two months I was doing just fine. Binge watching, playing with flatmates and I even made a new friend. I started home workouts , cooked a lot painted some shitty paintings and blah blah blah.And ofcourse you masturbate a lot. But when you are in your house 24*7 for fucking 3-4 months things gets really dark inside your head. You end up thinking about horrible things. The most frightening part was this blackhole of uncertainty and future staring back at me when I used the mirror. I stopped using mirrors (fun fact I am the kind of person who loved standing in front of mirror and flexing).

I screamed into the pillow at nights and my pillows wiped my tears and kept me from falling into the bottemless pit of insanity. I wanted to sink into the darkness, drown and never return. I started hurting myself , more like punishing myself for something I have no control over, romanticizing pain you know.

And this happened........


Waiting sucks doesn't it? 

Well I like playing evil😈










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